And Then I Heard Her.
I had her the day after my best friend’s daughter’s first birthday party. I kept saying I didn’t know if I was going to go, because it was far away and I didn’t want to go into labor out there. And then I got scheduled for a c-section for a Thursday because Deetz was breech. I went to a doctor’s appointment the Friday before and he told me I wasn’t dilated and there was no reason I couldn’t go to the party. He told me that they would see me Tuesday for my pre-surgery appointment, and then Thursday for the procedure. But Deetz had other plans.Read more
Capital D / Lowercase d
I was in middle school and I remember things had gotten more difficult. I was in band and in chorus and things just felt slightly different. I wasn't sure how to tell anyone or how to explain it to anyone.Read more
Happiest of holidays from my home to yours! I hope this season has you chock full to the brim of love, happiness, and food (obviously). If this season is difficult or has you feeling a little heavy, I'm walking that path with you as well - you are not alone.Read more
Full On Spiritual Awakening
Disclaimer: The stories on this blog touch on difficult issues and experiences. CW: This week's story involves situations pertaining to transgender health, gender dysphoria, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt ---- It...Read more
You Can't See Any of it From The Outside
I know what I want to talk about but I don't even know how to say it. I guess I want to talk about being chronically ill but no one either believes you...or they just don't see it. People look at you and they're like, "What do you mean? How do you feel that way? There's no way your neck feels like it's about to fall off, or that your bladder is burning so badly it feels like you're being stabbed with knives."Read more
The "D" Word.
It was my first serious relationship, first boyfriend really. He was also the first man to ever put his hands on me. It only happened twice, so I think I just found reasons to justify why it happened. You know, I would tell myself he was just angry, or it only happened twice so it’s not a big deal. I was just always finding reasons to justify why that happened. We were only together for about two years, and I didn’t walk away from that relationship. He ended up breaking up with me my senior year of high school. And it was tough because it was my first serious relationship, but he dumped me in my senior year. And it was tough to deal with, but he only laid hands on me a couple times, so I didn’t realize what was happening.
My Own Health and Happy
We would have been married for 17 years this year. That hurts.
I lost him after our fifth wedding anniversary, on September 22nd, 2006. He was in an auto accident the day after our anniversary that year.