and then I heard her.
I had her the day after my best friend’s daughter’s first birthday party. I kept saying I didn’t know if I was going to go, because it was far away and I didn’t want to go into labor out there. And then I got scheduled for a c-section for a Thursday because Deetz was breech. I went to a doctor’s appointment the Friday before and he told me I wasn’t dilated and there was no reason I couldn’t go to the party. He told me that they would see me Tuesday for my pre-surgery appointment, and then Thursday for the procedure. But Deetz had other plans.
capital D / lowercase d
I was in middle school and I remember things had gotten more difficult. I was in band and in chorus and things just felt slightly different. I wasn't sure how to tell anyone or how to explain it to anyone.
full on spiritual awakening
It was nuts. It was so nuts. It took me a full on spiritual awakening to even consider being trans, to even allow myself to consider the possibility.